May Winds

Death

2006-10-10T17:30:00.000-07:00

What's colder then snow
Falls faster then rain
Leaves nothing but pain in it's wake
Makes one wish for the life that is lost
Causes a heart to break
Causes tears to fall faster then rain on off a tree
Makes one feel empty inside

Only one answer could answer each of those and it's ...

I now know someone who(’s)

2006-09-28T18:30:00.000-07:00

Neat
Nice
Makes me laugh
Makes me cry while I’m laughing
Makes forget my problems for a short while
A gentle soul
Allows my pain to be their pain
Finds time in their day to make my day brighter.

As the Winds die down

2006-09-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

I feel a breeze on my face
Softly at first
Like a feather down from a newborn chick.

As the wind picks up
Brushing my face
With a force that I’ve never felt before.

I wish to turn away
But every time I do
I can only think of you.

And as I think of you
The wind howls in my ear.

The sound is debarring me
From hearing your voice again.

As the wind settles down
I can feel my tears fall and mix
With the rain.

A Change in the Wind

2006-07-06T00:30:00.000-07:00

Sitting alone night after night
Feeling the warm yet cool air
pass across my face
I'm reminded of a time
When it didn't feel as warm
Or feel as cool to the touch.
But it's cold
and there's no warmth to it
It covered me
In it's overpowering present
and left me to
shake and shiver all night long.

Worrying and Wondering

2006-05-21T19:25:00.000-07:00

I wait for you to call
In these cold and dark walls
In fear that you won't call.

I sit and watch for your car
To pull up my driveway
In hope that you will return.

I wonder why you left?
Why you had to go?
And why you didn't say goodbye!
Or even leave me a note.

I sit crying in the dark
Wondering why you left me here?
Why you couldn't take me with you?
and sometimes just Why?

Dawn

2006-04-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

I sit in the dark waiting for the dawn
Just waiting for the dawn of a new day
I can't sleep, not even a hour
Couldn't eat a thing all night
And now I see a glow in the distance
But it's not the dawn of a new day that I see.

The Rain

2006-04-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

I sit and watch as the storm comes

I just sit there and wait as the wind picks up

I smell the rain before I can hear it

The winds really picks up blowing my hair away from my face

Then the rain starts slowly

But like train it pick up speed

And the rain really starts coming down

I sit and watch as the lightning comes closer and closer

I sit on the ground as the wind start howl in my ear

I just sit there as the rain storm flys over me.

A light that shines because of you.

2006-04-01T13:30:00.000-08:00

I have found group of people who has become a very dear friends to me.
And they're a group of wonderful people, who have even helped me out of the dark.

And there are a few whom I can talk to and know they're not out to hurt me.
It's almost like they're my lighthouse is this sea of dark water.
When they are online, it makes me happy just to chat with them.

Even thought we have never meet face to face,
I've wanted you to know that sometime ago this darkness that I have been in has lifted a little because of each and every single one of you.

I just wanted to say thank you to every single one of you for being here.

How could you leave me feeling

2006-03-31T02:20:00.000-08:00

useless
unwanted
unloved
that if I die today that you won't care for me
without a family to call my own
dumped with a person who doesn't want me around
like I don't matter to you
like I'd make my heart as dark as yours, that you'd want me back
like I'm nothing without you
like I'm alive just so you can hurt me
like my being alive doesn't matter to you
like my tears have dried up along time ago
like my feeling for you mean nothing
as if my being here is enough for you to not want me
like I'm have disappointment to you
like I'm failure in your eyes
like I was discourteous that I needed to be disconnected from my family
like I frustrated you into not liking me
like I'd disappointed you every time that I was you were near

Am I really needed??

2006-03-28T21:25:00.000-08:00

No one calls

No one writes

No one sends an email from time to time

Everyone depends on me to to do it all and now I ask myself

Life's not all that great but am I really needed?

Darkness

2006-03-23T19:34:00.000-08:00

There is darkness all around me
it's pushing all of the light away
and making the light take all of the happiness with it
but with the darkness comes sadness, memories, and tears.

Promises and Memories

2006-03-17T21:41:00.000-08:00

Promises are like the rain, pours down on those who listen.

They are washed away with time and never told to a soul afterwards.

So why do some memories fade like a rainbow?

Because each day, we make newer memories to replace the older ones.

But Promises and memories freeze with time and are washed up and remembered with words from another.

That Silver Ray of Hope

2006-03-12T18:51:00.000-08:00

Yea, right!

A silver ray of hope is as meanless as a penny placed in a fountain. It means nothing to no one and doesn't bring you joy unless you go and do what does bring you joy.

It's almost the same as saving a dollar for a rainy day. That rainy day comes and you already spent that dollar, now what are you do?

Makes you want to stop and smell the roses, doesn't it? But you don't find roses in a dead garden and you don't find roses growing in the middle of the winter, either.

So that wonderful silver ray of hope dies along with everything else that watches the changes of seasons. If goes away when we're not looking and makes us grin and bare our miss chance at happiness.

And happiness is like a rainbow, when you not looking one will show up and disappear just as fast.

Dark and troubled

2006-03-07T19:00:00.000-08:00

Dark and troubled my day has been

I haven't found a light

No really meaning to live by

No one real thing to hold on to durring these times.

But what brings me to this place?

It's not the life I have now,

But the life I had before.

I feel like

2006-03-05T22:27:00.000-08:00

I feel like dying!

I don't know why

but I really do feel like dying.

Living isn't all that great,

Friends come and go

No one calls or writes anymore.

Everywehre I look there's

people dying, crying, or just not really living.

Makes you wonder if living is all that people say it is.

In the darkness

2006-03-04T19:05:00.000-08:00

It's dark outside

When I look out

No lights can be seen from my window.

Just like that a flash comes out of nowhere

Lighting everything, everywhere.

But it is only for a minute

And in that minute I see everything and nothing all at once.

What is Lost

2006-03-04T04:00:00.000-08:00

Have I lost all faith in myself?

Have I lost everything in my life that meant anything at all to me?

I have lost my friends, my family, and my life. I don't even have enough faith to say that I want it all back. As sad and lonely as I am.

Do I really want it all back now? No, not all of it.

Well, maybe a few friends and a family something that shows that I do have a life.

I don't sit up night crying myself to sleep. I don't pray to God to make things easier for me. I just get up and live each day as like the day before.

No matter what happens I'll always have one small thing to keep me to this life that I live. But what is that one small thing that I have...it's hope.

Hope for a brighter tomorrow, even when it doesn't come today, it still might come.

Moonlight

2006-03-03T20:52:00.000-08:00

On the moonlight you came

The stars were your eyes

The wind was your voice

Gentle singing soft and low.